Why do I sew?

I found the cutest pattern on line for the next Christmas stocking.  I bought the appropriate fabric with this pattern in mind. Do you think I could find the pattern when it was time to cut the fabric?  No, of course not!  So I've got both of the boys in bed for their afternoon naps, and I'm ready to sew!  Almost - I can't find the f%$#ing website!  I search and search and still can't find it.  I even went through my history.  So now I decide I'm going to wing it.  I can't for the life of me figure out the best way to do it. And we aren't talking about a complicated pattern either. My brain just doesn't work that way.  So then I just start cutting fabric and maybe I'll get inspired after that!  Nope!  This is not the way to make a quilted stocking!  I didn't get inspired - more like pissed off!  So then I thought I'll just start sewing strips together, maybe that will help me.  I did end up with this pinwheel/rail fence pattern. I'm sure it has a name, but I have no idea what it might be. I struggled with that all afternoon when it should have been about a 90 minute project.